okay, so i was so overwhelmed by the end of this yesterday that i couldn't even think enough to comment. and then i found myself reccing it (per a request), and realized that this meant i probably "owe" you a comment!
my rec was as follows:
i spent the better part of the day today off-and-on reading vaysh11's hp_kinkfest story: Snakefood. it took me awhile to get around to reading it, and also awhile to get through it because the kink featured is "fat admiration/feederism," and feederism is kind of a squick of mine, though i happen to be an FA (well, and a smaller-sized fatty myself). but vaysh did such a good job -- there is such tenderness, and gorgeous description, and depth to her draco... though you might prefer snarkier; this is a PWP, so the dialogue is a bit limited.
anyway, go. read. with hanky and lube.
and that basically sums up my reaction. i think i also didn't quite want it to end, so i kept reading slower.
my squick with "feederism" is that it's always been presented to me as "someone who is sexually turned on by feeding someone, hoping to make them fatter," which feels too much like controlling someone's physique to me (i squick at coerced/sexually demanded dieting, too, like foot-binding -- creating structural physical changes seems different to me than forced feminization/tattooing/piercing, all of which turn me on in the context of D/s). i do enjoy the feeling of being squashed beneath a bigger lover myself, but i was always like, "if you want a fat person, date someone who's already fat, don't go trying to change somebody's body to suit your tastes!
but this... that what draco delights in is not just the weight or the softness of harry's new fat, but the way harry is delighting in the rivoirines, the way the eroticism starts with the joy of eating, the joy of being treated, and spirals from there, that made me love this and find the kink both tender and hot. though mostly tender and heartbreaking (thus the suggestion to read with lube and hanky).
and i think i still find it heartbreaking most of all -- that harry's history of deprivation leads him to need to eroticize/exoticize sweets, that he and draco need to keep hiding from one another in addition to hiding their relationship, that neither of them wants to keep secrets but feels a certain inevitability around the disaster that their relationship will become as players on opposite sides of a war.
sword of damocles, indeed.
so, thank you. it's been a long time since a fic has caused this much introspection and consideration of where my own limits are (i used to copyedit and e-publish porn for a living -- i have very few squicks left, but most of them are pretty damn hard). and a "PWP," no less -- though i don't think this is without plot or disregards JKR's plot, so "PWP" is probably a misnomer -- how's about "PSF" - plottastic sex!fic?.
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Date: 2010-03-09 08:48 pm (UTC)my rec was as follows:
and that basically sums up my reaction. i think i also didn't quite want it to end, so i kept reading slower.
my squick with "feederism" is that it's always been presented to me as "someone who is sexually turned on by feeding someone, hoping to make them fatter," which feels too much like controlling someone's physique to me (i squick at coerced/sexually demanded dieting, too, like foot-binding -- creating structural physical changes seems different to me than forced feminization/tattooing/piercing, all of which turn me on in the context of D/s). i do enjoy the feeling of being squashed beneath a bigger lover myself, but i was always like, "if you want a fat person, date someone who's already fat, don't go trying to change somebody's body to suit your tastes!
but this... that what draco delights in is not just the weight or the softness of harry's new fat, but the way harry is delighting in the rivoirines, the way the eroticism starts with the joy of eating, the joy of being treated, and spirals from there, that made me love this and find the kink both tender and hot. though mostly tender and heartbreaking (thus the suggestion to read with lube and hanky).
and i think i still find it heartbreaking most of all -- that harry's history of deprivation leads him to need to eroticize/exoticize sweets, that he and draco need to keep hiding from one another in addition to hiding their relationship, that neither of them wants to keep secrets but feels a certain inevitability around the disaster that their relationship will become as players on opposite sides of a war.
sword of damocles, indeed.
so, thank you. it's been a long time since a fic has caused this much introspection and consideration of where my own limits are (i used to copyedit and e-publish porn for a living -- i have very few squicks left, but most of them are pretty damn hard). and a "PWP," no less -- though i don't think this is without plot or disregards JKR's plot, so "PWP" is probably a misnomer -- how's about "PSF" - plottastic sex!fic?.
well done.